Who Am I?

I still remember when I was traveling through a magic road and I met a girl. It was an all-paid trip for the best students of some high schools. The organizers wanted that all students get along, so they told us to talk with a student we didn´t know at the moment. I don’t remember her name, but I still remember her voice when she asked me: Who are you? What´s your story? I cannot recall what I answered, but I got nervous. That was a complex question for me while I was 17 years old. And it is still difficult to answer now, 7 years later. But I’ll try to write my response tonight. 

I am a student. I’ve been a great student since I’m was kid, my parents always wanted me and my sisters to be the best. Currently, I am studying at college, hoping to get my degree this year. I have a lot of goals in my professional life. I am focused on working at a laboratory. My passion is biotechnology, investigation and development of food, and microbiological analysis. I’m working towards getting a job in one of those departments in a big industry. 

About my hobbies, I love music. In my dreams, I am singing and performing on a stage, or playing the violin in a famous symphony, or being able to play millions of instruments. I currently play the violin, and I try so hard to sing correctly. I often had to let aside these activities due to my professional studies, but I cannot lie by saying that I don’t have these dreams every single day. 

I consider myself a lovely daughter, sister, cousin, niece. I would give my life for helping my family. If any of them is in trouble, I will not stop thinking about a way to help them. I want them all to be healthy and successful, and I am on cloud nine when I know they reached a goal. My family is small, and it has got smaller with time, but I appreciate all of them. 

I have lost a bunch of friends. I don´t like to say “I lost” because I know those people left for a good reason. I know that a lot of friends are going to go away someday. But I am thankful for the time we spent together and the lessons they teach me. Despite all the problems, I love the journey of meeting new people and know a little bit more about them. I am a passionate girlfriend, I love to give it all. And if I get a broken heart, I try to fix it as hard as I can. But I never close it. Because loving is beautiful, and it makes me a better person. 

I have a lot of goals in life. I want to be a great scientist. I want to be a musician. I want to be a writer. I want to be a mother. I want to be a teacher. I want to be a chef. I want to travel around the world. I want to speak five languages. I cannot do it all, but I am sure that I will do my best in every activity I get involved in. 

As you can see, I want a lot of things. And the result of dreaming that I fly higher than clouds is that I found myself swimming in the darkest deep ocean. I had a really bad time before, and I’m still struggling to go over all those problems. I needed help and my family and some friends loved to give me their hand. That’s why I appreciate all of them. 

So, this is me. Just with one question, I can write millions of books. I am my experiences, my mistakes, my voice, and tears. I am my thoughts even if they change every second. I am a person who will help you when you need it. I am a person who dances alone in a great concert. I am a person who sings laughing and sings crying. I am a person in whose eyes you can see love. I am a person who screams in a pillow as a result of a breakdown. I am a person who cries lying on the grass. I am a person who plays the violin with the soul. I am a person who breaks down for a silly problem, but I am also a person who will always work so fucking hard to get what I deserve. It doesn’t matter how much time it takes me to get up and fly again, but I will always get up.